I wrote a letter to David Wilkerson about his news letter :" Have you felt like giving up lately", and my response was yes.As a matter of fact,I basically gave up 3 yrs ago but I try to come back to God,asking Him to deliver me from sin but no change.I can't handle life now,not for a long time and I am just dying away.Something so black and empty is in me and I hate myself, my family and this whole stinking world. I can't help but to be angry, I have been dealing with this strange thing for so long. I've tried bible study,prayer,rebuking satan,talking to church members and my conclusion is no one really cares...not even God.He and I are on such bad terms now that I hate him, am angry at him, afraid of him,and hoping to be healed by him;but, it seems that He wants nothing to do with me.I admit I made a total mess of my life,but I ask Him to help me, forgive me, to take this angry spirit from me. Especially this angry,rebellious attitude I have towards Him.Yes I feel more and more that I don't want to live anymore,but what I must know is: IS THERE ANYONE IN THE BIBLE LIKE AHAB,JUDAS,ANYONE WHO CURSED GOD AND SOMETIMES OPENLY AND TRIED TO LIVE AGAINST HIM STILL FELT ASKING HIM TO DELIVER THEM FROM THAT EVIL....AND GOD HEARD THEM AND HEALED THEM ? THEN WHY HAS GOD LEFT ME TO THIS MISERY IN ME?
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Date: Mon, 24 Jun
From: Kathy Scoppettuolo
Subject: re: Have you felt like giving up lately?
I am in the midst of a very sad time. Someone who I consider a friend and brother is attacking me personally for disagreeing on a point of Biblical understanding. The "doctrine" he is defending as a valid way of understanding the Word is "irrelevance", which is an itching ears way of saying "I don't want to be restrained in that area, so God didn't know what He was doing when He inspired the writer of that passage, and I can ignore it". Pray for the protection of minds and hearts. I lack the skills to eloquently explain why I believe what I believe, and all there is (or ever was) to lean on is the Lord...but let me tell you, I feel as if I've been kicked in the stomach.
All that matters is how you stand before God - not this brother. Be encouraged, my dear! Lift up your eyes to Jesus or you'll surely sink by looking at the storm around you.
People will always disappoint you, but there's *no* disappointment in Jesus!
Use the weapon of prayer to defeat Satan and the hurt that has flooded your soul. Satan's greatest tool is discouragement. Make him mad by using it as a tool to find strength and growth in your Christian walk before the throne of God.
Additionally, I think this web site may arm you with solid teaching you could print out straight from the web site for this brother who needs help.
I would only hand him these printouts if God leads you to do so. Otherwise, they would definitely help you explain to others why you believe what you believe.
It's interesting to note that when the communists took over China, they marched through the streets with a printing press, carrying a banner above which read: "With This We Conquered!" The printed page is mightier than the sword!
Distribute copies of this solid Bible teaching to others who might be tempted to fall into the same trap as this brother you mentioned. It may save someone from many heartaches. The saying is true: "An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure."
Love and prayers,
LCFN Chapel SIGop
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